23

I had birthday last Sunday.. got older.. but feeling still the same. It was supposed to be a good birthday with a big party. We had it - about 30 people were there! But somehow it all turned out to be really stressful!

On Friday we went out. The whole evening was perfect! Then we took the night bus at 1, walked home from the stop. We realized there that my bag was missing - in there was everything: keys, money, mobile, ID, 2 ec cards, student ID.. So what to do?? We went back to the center to check everything - but of course there was nothing! At 4 we went back to the flat. Fortunately my flat mate was back and we could at least get it! But anyway, I didnt sleep at all because I was so worried - without ID I wasnt allowed to leave Czech Republic this week!

Then in the moring at 7:30 I got a call to my flat mates phone that the police had received all my stuff (as I found out later they didnt have all - about 1200 CZK were missing... but of course I shouldnt complain because everything else was there :) That was such a luck!! So now I could look forward to the party and to the people.

Saturday: We had a nice sight-seeing tour with all the people from Prague. Also dinner. Then we went to UCHO where we met the others. We were celebrating not only my birthday but also Luckas plus Iváns and my leaving and Holgers arrival.. many reasons :) and many nice presents! The best was that I got a new baby morce (guinea pig)!! to take care about it and make it develop and grow as I made LC Pilsen grow! That was sooooo nice :)))))

We left UCHO at 12 to go the center. Dancing, dancing, dancing. We enjoyed it so much! Just in the end Iváns camera was gone and he was so angry about it that all the nice moments before somehow vanished! It was such a stupid luck to end another evening with being worried about missing something and not knowing whether to get it back or not - in this case it was unfortunately more likely not to get it back :( So once more I didnt really sleep.

But anyway the next day I got to prove my Czech knowledge by negotiating with the police. Although they couldnt really help us much, I felt very proud of understanding them and telling them about our problem. I felt like a genius! :)

I hope all this wont continue for my whole year of being 23! I wouldnt survive with such a lack of sleep! and also not with this stress! So lets say all the bad things that were supposed to occur during this year I experienced within just two nights. That would be a fair deal then!

a trainee

On Tuesday I filled out my form. That was so cool!! I told people about one million times how to do it and what it is good for.. but when I had to do it myself it was different. Sometimes I didnt know what to cross and also I was a little nervous. It is indeed changing lives! It gave me a little bit of an adventure feeling. Not knowing where to go and what exactly to do! But anyway, I am looking forward to all that now a lot!! Being a number in our insight-pool!! Matching and then working... really hope there will be something nice for me :)

soon back home

Countdown. I am leaving Czech Republic in 15 days. I am happy - but sad. Once more I dont know what is awaiting me. Back in Chemnitz I might have to start a new life again. Most of my friends are not there anymore - and the ones that are there... I dont know if it will still be the same. 13 months have passed so fast - I remember my arrival on the 28th last year and also I have a million things in mind that I still wanted to do here. On the other hand I feel like I have been living here for all my life! I like it so much! The town, all the buildings, the 2 parks in the summer, my flat, even my work - and of course the people. Some weeks ago I thought I wouldnt miss them so much when being back in Germany. Now I know that I was wrong! So wrong! I am missing them already! They became so important. Most of them I have only met in October... our Newies... but still we became really good friends within these 5 months. Then there are the people I have been knowing right from the start. That is so special! They are the ones that can see how much this experience has changed me - that know what every single day here meant to me - the good ones - but especially the bad ones. The ones where I was completely lost and down. Where I was thinking about going back and quitting everything started here. The ones where I was doubting all my friendships and even my whole life. The ones where I was growing and finding out that not everything can be easy and not everything is going according to plans - yet everything has a meaning and teaches you something useful. Thats what I appreciate now - and thats what will stay with me... in Germany... and wherever else I will go.

in love

... with the right man. I am! I found him and I still can't believe it. How sometimes someone just steps into your life. Like a star in the sky that you just notice one night because everything around you is so dark that you can see this one star shining so bright - for you. And you don't let it go again! It's a spot - there for you all the time from now on! The nice thing is that it makes you shine as well and together the entire world starts looking so much nicer because of two shining stars! It's such a miracle! Love.

patient

All computers in our office are so slow! It takes about 5 minutes to send one single email! As we are now writing to all LCs and also to about 20 others to invite them to our Good-bye Party next week we will be sitting here for at least 2 hours! What million other things could be done in these two hours!! Clothes could be cleaned, books read, mothers called, cakes baked, baths taken... non of all that is so important... so actually... its not so bad to have slow computers when thinking about it now... and maybe somewhere else its even worse :)

on time

I'm never on time... I'm trying... but: no!

Today I was late for work again... 45 min!! What about my German genes?? They don't exist in me!! In this sense I would say my parents were doing a really bad job!! Sometimes this makes me feel really bad... I have good excuses though - a long list :) and they work - at least to calm myself down!!